Monthly Archives: December 2010

Dr. Strangelove: Or How I Learned to Stop Fucking Around and Love the Resolution

Let me preface this by saying that I do not believe in New Year’s resolutions. I repeat: I do NOT believe in New Year’s resolutions.

But this year, I’m ignoring my lack of belief and making a resolution. A resolution in which I give myself 1 year to turn my life around. I’m calling it The 365 Project.

It’s not a secret that I’m not particularly happy or proud of where I am currently in my life. I’m 22, 4 years out of high school and I really don’t have much to show for it, except 30+ college credits and lots of wasted time. At this point, one would figure that I’ve had as many chances as one could possibly have and now the only solution is to jump into the military or just give up and live the hum drum life of convenient and dead end retail jobs. Sadly, usually I’m cool with settling into whatever comes easy, even if I don’t necessarily like it. But this time, I’m over it. I’m over sitting around and letting life come to me. I’m over being just “OK.” It’s high time that I go out and bitch slap life and make it mine, once and for all.

That’s the basis for The 365 Project: The desire to stop settling, to stop being alright with just “whatever.” To discover and start living the life that I know I deserve, the one I know I’m capable of having. There’s so much that I want to do and experience. I want to travel a bit, I want to act, I want to get serious about my education, I want to write, I want to move out of the AV, etc etc. There are a lot of wants, a lot of things that I’m hoping to accomplish. Even if I’m scared, even if others tell me not to, I’m going to live this next year to the fullest and do it by my own rules. Through daily blogs, photos, and the occasional video, you’ll experience a year in the life of guy who’s got nothing left to lose and everything to gain.

This project is ambitious and I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not a super ambitious person. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not lazy (not purposely, anyway) and I’m always willing to work to get what I want, but there are times when I tend to get a little overzealous (StartingNow anyone?) and then the desire fizzles into nothing. But this can’t be that. Not saying that it’ll always be perfect, it’ll sometimes be a sentence long, sometimes it’ll be nonsensical. I can’t promise that it’ll all be eventful (because, really, my life is rarely ever that interesting and there are many days where I do nothing), but it’ll always be honest and to be blunt, this is more for me than it is for anyone else that happens to be reading this. It’s to prove to myself that I can keep something going and complete it.

At the end of it all, this is about making sure that I’m happy and satisfied with the life that I live. For myself.

So, on this day, December 31, 2010, I officially begin The 365 Project. Day one down and counting…